For few months now I am being constantly terrorised by my nightmares.They seem to haunt me whenever they find me in gay spirits. Each time I contemplate the reason for their appearance, but to no avail. Few days back i had them again, just the scenario changes but the problem remains the same. And finally I have come to this conclusion, this dream is nothing but an indication of my own life. The place keeps changing , I meet different people but the problem never changes and I am still running away from it. But what if I really don't want to find an answer to this. Is it not justified and okay to not know the answers of questions which will actually (in your opinion) change your life? Why is it always so difficult to live in your own way and on your own terms and beliefs? I believe everyone should live on his own norms and ideologies.
We are all so much crowded with relations and socialism and the moral drama. It is flowing everywhere around us. I hate to be surrounded by such people. Living free is what the talk in the air is about. But when it comes to living free, you pull yourself into restrictions , obligations and societal pressures. Nobody is happy seeing that you don't care. They simply want you to care. What if i don't give a damn.
When will we stop leading a life of moral obligations and instead work towards ideas and solutions and freedom. I just want to reach a stage where I am numb, comfortably numb. The pressure drives me crazy, the people make me go mad. Every passing minute seems to deny me the ounce of my own intellect.
I say this to myself, let me be my own and reach myself.
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If there will be no bound and rules then this world will be end up in chaos .... coz a rapist, a murderer, a terrorist all will be free to do whtever they want .... in my opinion that will be much difficult situation to handle ... and my opinion about the obligations is the same ... everybody have to fulfill some obligations coz thats how we r stll living otherwise we wud have been died due to malnutrition in our childhood only :)
ReplyDeletelook upto a certain period of lifetime everything we want to do is on our own way and wishes without any relationship obligations and hindrances, may be we call this "Freedom". But ultimately there will be no peace of mind working on your terms for long as gradually it will act as catalyst towards reaching a life of loneliness. We have to keep in mind the society we are living in and the relations for which we work,live & die as these are the only few ones for which u set your goals in life...
ReplyDeleteSometimes we fear the pressure of these relations towards things we want to do and we end up doing...but are these things bigger than the times when you need a friend to wipe your tears at the time of depress and you find only a hankerchief in your pocket with your hand on it...and at the sametime when you lay down your life in achieveing the goals with a partner working with mutual consideration then the joy of achieveing it is multiplied with the number of persons who are part of it (maybe a friend, partner, parents etc.) and then the no. of beer bottles opened are also more.....:-)
So my dear friend look upon a life full of known faces around you as they are the ones who sometimes gives you tears / boundations / confinement...but at most of the times want to see a smile on your face.....
Let me try to be objective about my comments ... The problem, I see lies in the definitions that one sets in his/her life ... Say .. Nightmares and Gay days ... What are nightmares? Something which we don't want to happen ... something we are afraid of ... 'cuz we think that the output of those events will not have good enough utility value for us and will consume resources rather than being productive .. so to maintain over all positive utility value of our lives we attach negative value to certain events and to their outcomes .. and we always want to avoid them ... This mindset is usually defined as restricted or rigid in local language...Now if one is really "free" and works on own "Volition" then he can't be rigid! Rigidity and Volition are complimentary they do not dwell in the same space ... so first of all one has to make up his/her mind if he/she wants to be "Free" and be accountable for his/her actions or he wants a greater shock absorber that is defined as "relations/friends/society" in lesser mortal's world or in simple language ... Once decided to be objective and free then one has to set even value to all events.. here "even" should be understood as a priory equal likelihood and then based on statistical analysis the value should be changed... In that case nothing will be nightmarish or gay, because everything will be predictable and there is no reason to be afraid.. rather being an intelligent being one has to then make mitigation plans and think and plan of least damage algorithm... thus the first part of problem can be solved this way.
ReplyDeleteNow comes the second part . about being moral and ethical .... What is Moral? What is ethics ? And once you are free ... do they affect you? Do you hear them? Do you see them at all? You have hatred or love for anyone? Make up your mind if you want to be free and walk straight or you wish to be social and crawl o your knees.
and THIS IS OBJECTIVE AND I WILL NOT SAY THAT "ACCORDING TO ME.. OR I THINK THIS".