A Reason

Can't find a reson to die,
Therefore I choose to live.

Can't find a reason to move,
Therefore I choose to stay.

Can't find a reason to shout,
Therefore I choose to be silent.

Can't find a reason to sail,
Therefore I choose to be at the shore.

Can't find a reason for excitement,
Therefore I choose to be lazy.


Can't find a reason to notice,
Therefore I choose to be ignored.

Can't find a reason to wait,
Therefore I choose to drift.

Can't find a reason for reality,
Therefore I choose to dwell in dreams.

Can't find a reason to be with you,
Therefore I choose to be apart.

I have no reason for anything,
And yet a reason for everything.
I have no reason to question all this,
And a reason to answer them all.

These reasons have become my identity,
These reasons are all I am known as
These reasons have become me
Then what am I ? Why am I ?
Just a reason I guess

ढूंढती मैं !

पत्तों  कि  छाओं  में  अपनी  सेज को  ढूँढा ,
उलझी  हुयी  राहों  पे  अपनी  मंजिल  को ढूँढा
भिखरी  हुयी  रेत  पे  अपना  नाम  ढूँढा ,
चट्टानों  से  टकराती   हुयी   लेहेरों  में  अपनी  आवाज़  को  ढूँढा

हर  नाव  में  अपनी  पतवार  को  ढूँढा ,
हर  मायूसी   में  अपने   हौसलों   को  ढूँढा ,
हर  नाकामी  में  अपनी  कामयाबी  को  ढूँढा ,
हर  ख़ामोशी  में  अपनी  दहाड़  को  ढूँढा

अपने  दबे  हुए  अरमानों  में  उमंगों  को  ढूँढा ,
अपने  सिले  हुए  होटों  में  जवाबों  को  ढूँढा ,
इन  तनहाइयों  में  उस  चेहरे  को  ढूँढा ,
और  उस  चेहरे  में  फिर  खुद  को  ढूँढा

कहाँ  गलत  ढूँढा ? कहाँ  नहीं   ढूँढा ?
पर  ये  तलाश  अभी  जारी  है .......