Comfortably Numb

For few months now I am being constantly terrorised by my nightmares.They seem to haunt me whenever they find me in gay spirits. Each time I contemplate the reason for their appearance, but to no avail. Few days back i had them again, just the scenario changes but the problem remains the same. And finally I have come to this conclusion, this dream is nothing but an indication of my own life. The place keeps changing , I meet different people but the problem never changes and I am still running away from it. But what if I really don't want to find an answer to this. Is it not justified and okay to not know the answers of questions which will actually (in your opinion) change your life? Why is it always so difficult to live in your own way and on your own terms and beliefs? I believe everyone should live on his own norms and ideologies.

We are all so much crowded with relations and socialism and the moral drama. It is flowing everywhere around us. I hate to be surrounded by such people. Living free is what the talk in the air is about. But when it comes to living free, you pull yourself into restrictions , obligations and societal pressures. Nobody is happy seeing that you don't care. They simply want you to care. What if i don't give a damn.

When will we stop leading a life of moral obligations and instead work towards ideas and solutions and freedom. I just want to reach a stage where I am numb, comfortably numb. The pressure drives me crazy, the people make me go mad. Every passing minute seems to deny me the ounce of my own intellect.

I say this to myself, let me be my own and reach myself.